you must enjoy your own company.

Before you even begin, listen to this while you read. It will sooth the mind and stimulate the spirit like no other. I feel the beat rushing: first from my feet, up my spinal cord, and finally turning up my shoulders. I know there is a purpose for me and everything that I have seen, all that I can become, yet all that I am not without you.

My friend told me it was Spring again in California, and he wasn’t fibbing at all…

rising spring

Well it is not quite yet spring here in New York City, but I feel it coming. I am getting older, it’s around the corner like the 24HR deli that we all covet. It’s rainy today, a friend called it, “A monsoon.” I’m not sure if it is or isn’t – regardless it wont stop my progress. I actually prefer the rain because it keeps all of the people who don’t really want to be out & about at home. I was never a fan of the gray area of life, I either want to love things madly or dislike them totally. I’m not really the type of person that likes to feel ambiguous about things. I love rainy days and thus I set out to have brunch today, originally with a friend, but the flu got the best of that friend. I try not to break plans unless the reason is pretty legitimate, and this reason seemed like it, I normally give people the benefit of the doubt, not because I am too nice, but because one monkey will never stop this show. My time is quite valuable because I will never get this second, day, minute, hour back. Ever. The time I take to write these words is time away from everything else in my life. The time you take to read them is also time away from the rest of your life, so for that I am thankful.

I had a great brunch.

hungry? why wait?

I sat alone at the counter with my book in hand, staring at the worlds of E.B. White, reciting them in my cerebrum… Wondering if I would have been able to cut it in their world, in this mythological New York that that that… I hope 50 years from now students will say still exist today. I’m not shy, so naturally I had conversations in passing with all around me – this is one of the forgotten beauties of New York, and that is the natural interaction that can happen: anywhere, anytime. The comfort of routine can often subconsciously hinder our natural instincts of conversing with strangers. I enjoy being alone, not because I don’t enjoy the company of others, but because if I cannot stand myself enough to have a meal by myself how can I expect another to stomach (this is when you laugh) a conversation with me?

A lot of growth can be done alone: while bouncing around the globe, I challenge you to try it. I think for me it has worked wonders. The world has the most beautiful chemistry and balance that I have yet to experience. This is not by random chance, it was fated to be this way – we have to realize that each and everyone of us is at the center of the world yet at the same time we are all so small in the grand scheme of things. Though the world revolves around me and you at the same time it revolves around all of us. I enjoy the sound of my ideas running through my head: reckless, unclear, and timid before I can properly formulate them into topics of conversation. If we are out to coffee and I do not appear interested, please be sure that if I wasn’t I would excuse myself immediately, it is no offense to you, but I’m just deep in thought. Words should not be said just for the sake of it, but because we stand by them and mean them with all of our hearts.

I never know where these posts are going, I just start to type and the words flow. I don’t necessarily start with an objective the ideas stray, but I try to centralize them and bring them all back together. I think the way to make people, ideas, life relevant is to prove them in as many ways possible because then it is meaningful to all who witness them.

lonely building x east village

wallpaper not the magazine.

when life gives you lemons.

duck duck goose.

I really want to go outside.